Day 7 - Tuesday

Cleanse is over with i had a shake for breakfast and for lunch i had a yummy sandwich. I did a  lot of house work and plan on walking tonight. I have been so hungry.. Oh and the whole poo thing came out today WOW man TMI i know. Measurements from my 3 day cleanse are

Chest 42
r arm 14
l arm 15 1/2
waist 41
hips 51 1/2
r thigh 26
l thigh 25


Not much change i got to say though i have been so frustrated lately.. Never in my life have i ever felt REALLY obese maybe a couple times but not like on a daily basis. I have always been happy with who i was physically, i knew i was a bigger girl but it didn't bother me because i could still do everything everyone else did. Lately i have felt so down and FAT. Just weird i wonder what has changed or if it is that i am being forced to look at myself through numbers. Maybe it is just the time in my life, uncertainties failures, and changes that i don't like. God is doing something in my life and this time i am taking it as it comes and learning. Things that have been happening in the past few days are just so hard but in relativity they are not. Jimmis job, wanting to be back in MI, missing family and friends, Josh, and discipline with Izzy.  I told Em today that I feel just UGH. Circumstances i cant change only God can so why am i not going to him? Fear of rejection fear of not hearing what i want? maybe? I think that i just havent thought of Him as the one to turn to first.. Well On that note I AM OFF TO PRAY!!!